sumispace

 I am 19 and it is so overwhelming, like the world is chasing but I keep shunning, 20s ahead is scaring me. I am 19 and sometimes I'm strange, I fall for them all, one minute they're perfect,  the next but the next they are gone, Is it me or have I been wrong all along? I am 19 and want to conquer it all, yet some days, I like shrinking small. I dream of the future but I hate growing old, still time keeps moving or so I'm told. I am 19 and craving to grow, but the 20s ahead feels heavy as I know. I want everything but does it matter at all? I wonder if life is supposed to feel this tall? I want to grow in love, yet I feel so torn.  Like dancing in joy, yet I feel forlorn, I am desperate to feel, yet conscious too,  I am 19 and wondering about what should I do?

Do you still judge her, how can you be so callous? For years or so she kept her tears inside her heart, finally he time came when it became visible to all.  She could not tell lies anymore, could not hold her tears anymore, that was the time when she accepted, yes she's been hurt. Her room's wall started to shout out to go out, so she sought kept, slowly became antifragile. She got a new birth with new thoughts, musings and music of life, she stands strong now, up from the lowest and ready for the greatest. Now, she knows those who matter don't judge, and those who judge don't matter to her anymore. She has started her way again to pioneer a path, where sunshine and mountain peaks converge, and all set to witness a blissful sky.