Finally I am 19!

 I am 19 and it is so overwhelming,

like the world is chasing but I keep shunning,

20s ahead is scaring me.

I am 19 and sometimes I'm strange,

I fall for them all,

one minute they're perfect, 

the next but the next they are gone,

Is it me or have I been wrong all along?

I am 19 and want to conquer it all,

yet some days, I like shrinking small.

I dream of the future but I hate growing old,

still time keeps moving or so I'm told.

I am 19 and craving to grow,

but the 20s ahead feels heavy as I know.

I want everything but does it matter at all?

I wonder if life is supposed to feel this tall?

I want to grow in love, yet I feel so torn. 

Like dancing in joy, yet I feel forlorn,

I am desperate to feel, yet conscious too, 

I am 19 and wondering about what should I do?



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