MUSINGS IN SOLACE

 I very vividly remember, sometimes I used to look into the mirror for long and my mind used to start wondering. I have been thinking about all this since a long time about why I am here, why I am the way I am, where have I come from, what's the purpose of my existence, why am I supposed to make a life here, why am I supposed to fit into society's structure, why this structure exists at the first place, how can I exactly think like this, can there be any other way of me being me, will it still be 'me' if I don't remain the way I am, why is sadness not good, why should one strive to be happy, what does happiness mean and these questions can go till infinite and no one will gain anything from this. 

I have realized the root cause to all these question is 'ego'. There can be no perfect answer to any of these questions, anyone dealing with these questions will have to first burn and find answers on it's own. Burning is compulsory, it will help you dissolve your ego and then you surrender to life, only time and your personal experience will help you form answers of your own. You just have to live, you just have to be passionately you, you will have to find your own conclusions because these questions are coming from you and answers has to be yours, you can definitely take help from others but you can't understand their answers, even if you understand it intellectually it will not serve you because it is not yours. 

So take charge of your life, do it by meditation, that's the simplest way I know, sit with yourself for some time, without any external simulations and feel what is the universe inside you trying to communicate, we live amidst so much distractions that we die without experiencing life and believe me these are the root cause of all suffering, I think it's a disservice to yourself and the universe that you die without experiencing yourself, you die without seeing your existence in full bloom, but it's your call at the end. 

Become the observer, become the doer, surrender to life, flow with your energy, listen to your intuition then intellect will follow, prosperity will follow, you will blossom and ultimately bliss will come.