All I do is love

It's been months that I haven't posted anything here but all this time I was living life and experiencing it as it's supposed to be. I have changed a lot as I must accept that, I can't relate to that version of me anymore, it's so cool to keep looking at yourself from the 3rd view like a movie character and watch a movie in real time. I am writing it here because I want to remember it in the way I write and if this can help even a single person out there then what's better than that. 

I have changed the way I look at life. I am constantly trying to become less self aware as it makes me numb, intellectualism of human emotions is a trap. Emotions are meant to be felt, not examined. I am more kind towards myself now, I took risks, I exposed myself to emotions like shame, embarrassment, guilt, fear, hatred, envy, love and loss and I absolutely have no regrets. In my upcoming posts I'll talk about all these emotions but let's start with the most beautiful and important of all 'love'. 

 

Love is the only sane answer for all the problems of human existence. I have heard this phrase somewhere and I trust in it with all heart. Having someone with whom you can be truly yourself, who makes you feel seen, heard and understood, is curious about you, pays attention to what makes you sad, what makes you happy, wants to know you for who you truly are and still accepts all your flaws, love which cures anxiety, heaviness of heart and unbearable physical pain.

Love is truly a medicine, trust me. It's not just about romantic relationships, and you will never understand this if not experienced. Let yourself be vulnerable and take that risk of falling in love. It feels dangerous to put yourself out there in your rawest form but it is a life changing experience. It's the fire, the catalyst after which no person remains the same and the risk is worth taking when you put someone else's need above yourself, surrender to it, it's such a humbling experience. Love is such a deep spiritual, transcendental and enlightening experience. Unselfish love, devoted love, pure love, love which transcends all boundaries, love which makes the world beautiful in your eyes, love which heals you to the deepest core, love which makes you kind, love which inspires you to be better, love which makes you feel whole, love which makes you feel abundant, love which makes you more forgiving, love which is the only true feeling to be yearned for. I am really short on words. I hope you get to experience it, world would become such a gratifying place to be if just everybody falls in love. I am a stupid, delusional, idealist girl who believes life always works for her, if anything bad happens it's also for good. The fact that we are born, isn't that amazing, isn't that magical in itself?

I know there are many issues environmentally, politically, socially but can cribbing over it would solve anything? I really don't think so. Take actions, do things from love. If you are unable to do so then let it be, do not crib, crying over why did they cut trees is not helping anyone. I used to do this but I got tired and I refuse to go back to that state of me. I am evolving, every day little by little. I feel that's the whole point, everything boils down to one single emotion that is  'love'. 

I was filled with so much of hatred, judgement for myself and thus for everyone around, my world used to get shattered if I saw some mishap. But operating from love now makes me hopeful even for the things I can't control, operating from love has made me soft and strong at the same time. No matter what happens, what the world throws at me. Do things out of love, do things from love, do things because you are in love. I have a lot to say still but we will do that some other day. Take care meanwhile and STAY FULL OF LOVE. 💗